Numero Uno

hannah and iIt just seems like when I talk about my life I feel like Its not really me I’m talking about.. How can one person have so many different things going on at the same time.
Took Hannah to a therapist last night to talk about some issues we were having a hard time getting through. Hannah is definitely feeling like she is second fiddle around here. I sensed this but didn’t know how I could change it.
I know that when the little boys need me they get my attention almost immediately. Andrew, because he is relentless and very demanding when he wants something and its just easier to attend to him to get him to not act out…Noah, of course requires non-stop attention. We need to make sure he is still in our world and doesn’t sink back into the abyss that he finds so comforting.
The therapist, after delving into our history and life now, made a great observation about Hannah and I. She said, “you two were here first!”… ” you guys are the #1!” hannah1 Before Corey, before all of the changes that came with 2 new brothers and now their special needs. I realized how much Hannah’s life has changed over the past few years. Mostly for the better….but different. She went from being the youngest of 4 “the baby” who was my sole focus after my divorce to getting shuffled around with no choice as to where and when. I moved on to a new life. and an happier more fulfilled marriage. She resented this at first, but over time came to love Corey and now her little brothers.
By acknowledging all of these dynamics, we are now able to better understand each other and enjoy each other so much more.
I love my Hannah March, she is smart, beautiful, caring, funny and my little girl.

Amanda Lee

Cant believe my baby is going to be a momma. Its such an amazing circle of life. Time just goes by too quickly. They always said it would but now that I see my kids growing up and becoming real adults I realize that its flying by

Amanda had the IVF transfer this morning . The Dr put 2 embryos inside of her. I know the excitement and anticipation she is feeling . Her mind is probably going non-stop from picking out nursery decor to the “what-ifs”
My daughter is a planner, just like me. She will know exactly what she wants and will make a way to get it. If she hits a bump in the road she holds on and prevails. She will be an amazing Mommmy. She can multi task like no one else I know.

Amanda Lee

Making important calls

Tubby Bath Time

I’m getting ready to go to dinner with Corey as Hannah helps get the boys in the tub. As I sit at the dressing table fixing my hair and putting make-up on I can hear big sister praising Andy, “keep your eyes closed, GOOD BOY!”as she pours the water over his head. Both boys are giggling and splashing around. Now they are singing. She is teaching them Christmas Carols..”you better watch out, you better not cry…” She handles both of them with ease and like a pro.
She is their 2nd little mama.
I’m smiling just listening to the 3 of them interact. She lets the water go down the drain and says, “bye bye water!” the boys say, “bye wawa” Noah says “see ya!”
How did I get so blessed???


Been feeling well. I’ve been taking my injections daily for almost 2 months now and I can say there are no side effects. There is a nasty burn and welt after i take the shot, as if a bee stung me. But that’s it. I feel fine, just tired. But having a 2 yr old in your bed every night will do that.

I love my life.

I love my husband beyond words or cards, or superficial junk… I’m blessed that he loves me too. He shows me every day.

I like to keep busy all the time. I really have no use for t.v. I would much rather be doing something, anything productive than sit and watch Corey surf channels. If there is a good movie on then I will sit.

Pet peeves are: laziness. Apathy.being late. sarcasm, unless it’s me being sarcastic…stupidity. More on that I’m sure in future posts. Image